Dear B,It's been a long time since I talked to you. I'm sorry for the way things ended between us. You were one of the best people I had in my senior year. You are apart of every single memory I have from those years. I am so glad I met you in Advanced Algebra. We started talking everyday and you and I became so close. I knew of how you felt about your family, how you wanted to get away, sometimes I would want to ask you to come with me.
I knew of your heart break, your struggles, and I wanted so badly to be there for you. We were so young and naive about boys and the world outside of our bubble. You found a guy who made you happier than anyone. But he also was the one who made you the saddest you ever were in your entire life. Our friends and I, we thought you were in something unhealthy and toxic. We had our reasoning, and we tried to explain but it didn't work. To this day, you're with him still and I hope that he makes you happier than anyone still. But more importantly, I hope he doesn't make you sad. Thinking about it, years later, maybe I shouldn't have gotten involved in your relationship. I just wanted what was best for you. It was a lot of miscommunication and hurtful words that broke us. When it came down to it, you chose our other friend over me. I don't blame you. I was and still am 1000 miles away from you. It hurt a lot but I was never going to be the one to ask you to choose one side. You didn't have to. All I want for you is complete and genuine happiness until you leave this earth. You gave me so much in the short time we knew each other. You made me feel like I wasn't alone when all you feel when you're a teenager is that you are alone and that no one knows how you feel. You knew how I felt. and vice versa. You understood my long nights and crying over a boy who I probably haven't spent more than 5 minutes thinking about in the past 2 years. You even gave me my first Chick-Fil-A which is honestly a milestone. It was crazy that the same day we got that, we got into a car accident in your really nice car. You were really upset and I just wanted you to know that we were in in together. With all that being said, I am truly sorry for the way things ended between us. I wish we could talk again. Without the terrible feelings we might harbor towards each other. You were truly one of the nicest people I had in my life, all the catty fights and fallout aside. Sincerely, Gwen
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