I know my own worth and what I should and shouldn't give out to people. It's hard for me to actually take my words for literal because even though I'm over here preaching that I am worth more than the situation I am in, I let everyone and everything walk over me.
Adulting is hard, it sucks, but sometimes you have to put your foot down in order to form your own happiness. That doesn't mean going around taking everyone else down with you, but it means, when you know something isn't right for you, you make sure nothing get in the way of your happiness. My friend keeps saying that "I'm learning to be okay with saying, No." and it's not like I have a problem with saying NO, it's more like I feel like there is something more I should be focusing on other than myself. Nowadays, I feel as though us Gen Z'ers and Millenials are groomed to think showing up to work is more important than our mental health and physical body if we are sick. Who came up with that concept? C'mon, we shouldn't feel like we need to walk in those doors and work that 8 hour shift while we are sick as a dog. We shouldn't have to feel like we can't take care of our own issues before walking into an environment that *usually* doesn't care about it's employees over the money. I am just so frustrated with feeling numb and tired all the time. I get sleep, I love school, I have a roof over my head, don't get me wrong, but WOW, nobody can make me feel worse than my conscious telling me that if "I don't stop being depressed and sick, I will lose my job, then lose my things, all my friends, become an alcoholic, drop out of school, then become homeless and die." that's a daily struggle over here. It's not like I don't want to work or be independent, it's more like I keep putting myself in terrible work situations. My worth is huge. I know I deserve better. I know that I will get to where I need to be. I'm finally opening myself up to who I need to be and the happiness I deserve. this one is for me. <3
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