Hi guys (: I have been majorly uninspired lately. It's made me go crazy about what I want to write about. I don't just wanna come up with something in 10 minutes and ... done here ya go world. I want it to mean something to me. If that only takes me 10 minutes then YES go me! Anyways, I had major writers block until I realized. I'm inspired all day everyday 24/7 by all the things around me. Music, movies, PEOPLE, places.... it's amazing. My best friend's sister Whitney S. recently started coming on Instagram stories, being her true, real self. Talking to the camera, doing her little segments. I love it. I didn't know her too well before, but now, each time she comes on and is truly herself, I feel like I know her deeper. BUT that is the entire point of those stories lol. Point is, I want to be like her. I mean I'm not talking about my feelings or whatever, but just being myself on social media, which can be super toxic at times. I am a person who needs to be constantly busy or I get bored out of my mind. Yes, I can be lazy and have full on JOMO, but most of the time, I need to do something. Work wise, I mean. I think it's crazy that the other day I was thinking about going down to the pool with a good book in hand to relax. What is relaxing??? I am going stir crazy in this house. My point is, I have felt so down in the dumps since finishing school, probably because it's weird to feel... free. Free of stressful classes and loads of homework. But I need that. I need something to keep me busy, and that's the way it's always been. I have been scouring the internet applying to multiple jobs a day trying to get back on my feet. I am a person who is so invested in doing something that I don't know what else to do. It even feels crazy to even think about going to the pool laying down and reading a book I've been trying to read for a year and a half now. Oh gosh... I'm trying. I'M TRYING HERE. Trying to find the happy medium between sleep all day and play all night. I get lonely easily which I hate to admit, but I gotta be honest with you guys. There's something about being cooped up all day in a *semi-messy* room. It's not good. I actually have no idea what to do about it. It's the hardest thing for me to actually feel motivated to get out of bed and do something productive. Meaning like.... getting ready and leaving my apartment to run errands... ew. I'm lazy especially because my energy levels seem to stay low no matter how much sleep I get. It's almost like it's all in my head. I've felt this for years and most of the time it's cause of how I'm feeling on the inside. I FEEL USELESS. HONESTLY. WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE???????? I have ranted and written and talked about how I feel so confused about the future in terms of my happiness and what will happen. So many of you have messaged me telling me how much you relate and I know I'm not alone. We are all at this point in our lives, at least the people who graduated with me and some people who aren't in school at all. Confused. Scared. Excited all at the same time. OK sorry now I sound like a song from Summer 2016. 😂 The point is, what the hell are we doing? Does anyone know? If you know, help a girl out. Are we all just winging it at this point? If I am missing the spark of energy and inspiration to write, I don't want that to rub off on you. So today, I actually wanted to highlight some of my best girl bloggers. Maybe I can give them inspiration to write and to be authentically themselves too. My first boss babe is Sofia Gutiérrez. She is one of my closest best friends here in Los Angeles. I love her to pieces. Her blog is www.thegirlwiththebravehair.com and I absolutely love when she posts. She is so BRAVE to come on her site and be vulnerable with people she probably doesn't talk to on a daily basis. She posts about how her life is going, sometimes boys, mostly women empowerment... which we LOVE. Read her blog after you finish reading mine. 😉 Another girl I wanna highlight is my old friend Adrianna. I've known her since 6th grade and we lived in the same apartment complex. She was a year older than me but was always down to play with me outside. It was the best time that I would not change. Adrianna has her own blog as well! https://adriannateresablogs.wixsite.com/blog she is a lifestyle blogger, similar to me, similar to Sofia. Although we have all different topics, it all falls under lifestyle. She recently started her blog maybe 2 months ago! Check it out (: The last blogger I want to hype is Lyzelle Maranan. She is so gorgeous, I swear. We went to high school together and met through a mutual group of people... I'm pretty sure, like 99% sure that we were in the same homecoming group my sophomore year. 😂 Anyways, Lyzelle is honestly goals. She lives in Seattle but always travels back and forth to CA just to visit Disneyland. WTF?! She has an entire blog about how to do Disney in 1 day when traveling. Mind... blown. She was even an annual pass holder before me and I LIVE IN LA. (Oh btw, I just got a pass :)) her blog is www.lyzmaranan.com and you need to check it out! Anyways, I hope that I inspired these three girls as well as all of my readers. Just like Sofia, I am a big believer in Girls Support Girls. As much as I do it on Instagram by reposting and commenting, there's nothing like a sincere write up of these girls. I am actually super thankful I know each of them and their style of writing, fashion, all that stuff is amazingly different yet the same. Hopefully soon, my semi writers block will be gone and I can keep up on my writing now that school is over. Summer is almost here and I cannot wait. Stay tuned! As always, love you all so much.
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