Hey guys! I wanted to start a new series today. And I'm calling it Transition. As many people think change begins with the seasons at Fall, I think it begins now, I think it begins when you want to switch up how your life is going mentally. A lot of things are changing or have already changed for me the past few months. I wanted to start off this series with, "Dear Me at Fifteen" basically forgiving myself for my mistakes, my heartaches, and making peace with who I was/am. I'm 19, almost 20 in 2 weeks and I feel like I owe it to myself to have a new start to this amazing incredible summer I'm about to experience. I think that letting go and forgiving myself for all the things I've held against myself for so long is just the first step. SO, thank you for being with me during this journey to discover who I really am and to accept this change easily! I've been so inspired with so many things lately that it ultimately came down to this topic on change. Here we go! Dear Me at Fifteen, Forgive yourself. You will make mistakes. You will get your heart broken. Many times. But you will be okay. I know your first year of high school is already tough for you. I know your relationship with your mom right now is not the best. But trust me, it'll get better. Wait. I know. YOU HATE WHEN PEOPLE SAY THAT. You still hate it at 19. But I'm not kidding you. It will be so much better than how it is now at fifteen. Keep listening to "fifteen" by Taylor Swift. You can play it as much as you need until you decide you understand now. Be nice to your friends. But know when it's time to let go cause although they were your best friends, you will obtain some really amazing best friends later on in life. You just have to be patient. Don't worry if that boy freshman year loved you, he did but not enough, and you already know it doesn't last forever. None of this does. You'll grow up and move out and you'll find a boy who loves you more than anyone combined. Just be patient. You just turned 15 in June and it's finally the summer. Focus on your summer reading, sophomore year is going to be a lot more work but you'll love it. You'll meet another boy who you fall head over heels for. You'll meet a life long best friend just by complimenting her jacket. Cherish her! Pay attention to what goes on with her. She's amazing. Just saying, that boy that you so dearly fall head over heels for, he secretly is falling for you too. But it's not meant to be so don't cry when he leaves like I did. Be nice to your mom, she can be crazy and wild and mean but she loves you underneath all of that. Don't argue or be sensitive, show them that you are strong. and PLEASE. Don't stomp up and down the stairs or runaway so many times. And btw, if you sneak out, they will find out cause you'll lock yourself out like a dummy. Focus on your honors class and focus on your clubs, it really shapes your path. Love your teacher who becomes like a second mom. She is so amazing. Overall, just be okay with who you are. I don't want you to worry if you even make it to 17,18 like I did. and don't look at your scar everyday. You'll embrace it later and it will fade away slowly. You make it past high school. Try to see a future for yourself. Mine is still blank and I'm trying but when I was you, I didn't see me past a certain age either so now I'm stuck and blind. Don't worry. Not everything in life is supposed to be perfect. Love who you are, you're so tiny and curious about the world. Follow your dreams! Keep writing in that notebook, I still have it. It's full now. Crazy huh. Love, Me. As always, love you all so much. XOXO,
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